I WANT YOU TO KNOW..

Ohh! How I have missed BLogging!! I sit here and breathe it in like an old familiar scent. Ahhh. :)
Anyways. Excuse me while I blabber for awhile.
 My September was MAGNIFICIENT!!!
On the 4th  I got on an airplane in Toronto and flew 81/2 hours over the ocean to the lovely land of Ukraine.
I lived with Amber, who You may know as Rainbow Smudge, and her splendid family for 3 weeks. And we had a crazy, amazing, awesome, spectacular, memory-filled time. ;) Made new friends and went on hair-raising adventures. :D It was AWE-SOME!
I got home on the 25th, 5 days before my Cousin's wedding. The jet lag was Lovely. ;)
I just noticed now that while I was off being a world traveller I missed my First blogoversary! Hum de dum! Lets celebrate!!
I can't believe Its been a year. So much has happened since than and Its been a crazy Ride!
This next year I'm going to try to keep blogging among my top 30 priorities. So let's see how that turns out.:D  I am open to reminders. ;)

Now i feel like answering some cute questions I saw on afew of the blogs that i follow... ......GO!

  (The words I typed are in reference to how i feel, not what resembles me:D Just making that clear....)

If I were a gemstone:Id be a pearl. 

If I were a scent: I'd be the smell of rain

If I were a pair of shoes: I'd be high heeled pirate boots.  girly AND scary:D

If I were the weather: I'd be a fresh, bright, rainbow-filled, and mist swirled.

If I were a facial expression: I'd be a goofy ear to ear grin

If I were a car: I'd be a ......um.... okay i wouldn't be a car. I'd be one of those hippie vans that are huge and  pastel colored and awesome;D

If I were a time of day: I'd be 10 P.M, when the evening is just beginning.;)

If I were a month: I'd be September

If I were a place: I'd be a cute little coffee shop in the middle of winter.

If I were a liquid: I'd be maple tea.

If I were a taste: I'd be chocolate;)

If I were a sea animal: I'd be a charming shark;D

If I were a food: I'd be a cinnamon roll;)

If I were a color: I'd be A vintage color. Like lilac or light blueish green...

If I were a musical instrument: I'd be bagpipes:D

If I were a flower: I'd be baby's breath.

If I were a song: I'd be a song of happiness mixed with laughing.

If I were a planet: I'd be Pluto. Ignored but unforgettable;P

If I were an object: I'd be a glint in your eye

If I were a fruit: I'd be a raspberry

If I were a sound: I'd be a giggle

If I were a day of the week: I'd be Saturday.

 Random. I love blogging. :) Hope you guys are having the best day EVerrr.
<3

The Struggle

"   "In a world that’s still trembling in the wake of the fall, 
   our hearts are desperate for hope.
   They’re hungry for freedom.
   They’re longing for redemption.
   And here’s the good news.
   In Christ, we have all three."

We may not have answers to our questions, but we do have promises for our souls.
And the promises of God are twofold.
We are free to struggle, and we’re also not struggling to be free.
Our desire is that listeners will walk away with both of these truths still ringing in their ears and burning in their hearts.
We are free to fail because there’s an ocean of grace that we fall into.
But also, we have the promise of a power so strong that it raised Christ Himself, and so we know that, mystery of mysteries, we’re also not struggling to be free.
Imagine if we believed these things so strongly that we too gave grace to those tangled in their struggles while still calling them to the promise that they can be set free from them?

We’re in this thing together. Some fighting the waves, some breaking backs against the oars, some just trying to hold on. But one thing we know, we have each other, and most importantly, we have Christ.
And though it seems like He may have forsaken us, that He’s forgotten us, we need only look to the scars in His hands to remember He too entered the storm. He calmed the seas we could not calm. He broke the chains we could not break.
So wherever you are, whatever struggle you’re walking through, know that you’re not alone, and there’s grace, every step along the way."

- Mike Donehey

.Hectic.

Swish goes the day.
Every time.


Summer is being Hectic!! As Busy as a barnyard, and absolutely Crazy. And wonderful. :)
 On the days that i feel overwhelmed or stressed out or just a little lost, I like to look up at the stars and think of the little things that I make me happy.

Like ....
      green leaves.
or my brothers' sillyness.
    The swoosh of wind on my face.
Driving with the windows down.
               Days that the sky is blue, the clouds are puffy, and the air is fresh and reviving.
 ..Friends..
     Special birthday gifts. :)


...Special moments when I can sit back, look around quietly and contentedly, and say, "Life is Good".
God is good.


And relax in Him.



.......Ahhhhhhhhh.

*happy smile*
:)





P.S.
I heard about Gratitude Journals for the first time in Sunday School the other day. What better time to start one than in the early morning hours of my first day after turning 18.
:)


Wishing You Gratitude;)

I .........

-Heart Hiccups 

-baby giggles

-A fo real "i understand" moment

-special smiles

-my cousins and their absolutely perfect caring hearts :')

-Friends. The far, and the close. <3

-fireflies on the beach at night

-twilight

-looking at the stars and feeling my heart beat inside me.

-old vehichles:)

-feeling secure in CHRIST! <3 

-Happiness. duh:)  

-making people laugh ;) hehe. so satisfying.

-owls

-our waterfall in our back yard. and other ones. :) big ones. 

-sitting outside in the dark by myself and feeling emotions.

-feeling emotions. In general. they amaze me and fascinate me.

-watching people. So many souls. so little time. 

-*feeling small* moments. 

-God touches. ;)  

-being absolutely content.      COM plete Ly.              ahhh.<3 :)

-being able to tell my friends my life problems and confusions, and getting love and advice. More than I can say, I love this and appreciate this.

-rain. a shower of refreshing loveliness. <3

-belly laughs :)

-campfires

-water fights

-the SUN!

-Ontario!!!   BEAUTY at its absolute loveliest! Lush, green summerness.

-My Church. Not the building, the Warm Love.

-Happy days.

-Secrets.                                              ;)

-things that little kids say.:D 

-inside jokes. 

-flowers

-family gatherings:)

-Freedom

-Sunsets on the beach. 

-People 

-Frozen Yogurt

-crunchy apples:)

-shopping!

-little pets

-Arnold The Turtle :')

-My family!! My strange, strange family.

-Singing.

-Hugs

-heart to heart walks at night:)

-the Moon

-fresh air

-My jeep:)

-freckles lol:D

-Ice water

-cOlors

-feeling Loved

-feeling special.

-Loving

-real complements

-Chocolate:)

-GlowSticks

-vacations

-waterslides

-rollercoasters

-eyes<3

-writing

-SUMMEr

-green trees

-shadows

-rainbows

-sparkles

-4x4ing

-adrenaline rushes:)

-insignificant significance 

-a breeze

-hammocks

-feeling like a little kid again

-turning 18:)  maybe. We'll see;)

-the look on someones face when you give them a gift. :) :) :)

-surprises

-finding humorousness in strange situations

-open windows

-drive-thrus

-Weddings

-the smell of grass

-perfume! :)

-the fact that this list will probably never end . 

- :)       smileys. 

-Joyful Living.

My life makes me happy. 

My FRIENDS, You light up my life. 

:')

What makes YOu happy? . :)

Treasures in Jars of Clay

 

  Therefore, since through God's mercy we have this ministry, we do not lose heart. 

  Rather, we have renounced secret and shameful ways; we do not use deception, nor do we distort the word of God. On the contrary, by setting forth the truth plainly we commend ourselves to every man's conscience in the sight of God.

 And even if our gospel is veiled, it is veiled to those who are perishing. 

 The god of this age has blinded the minds of unbelievers, so that they cannot see the light of the gospel of the glory of Christ, who is the image of God. 

  For we do not preach ourselves, but Jesus Christ as Lord, and ourselves as your servants for Jesus' sake. 

  For God, who said, "Let light shine out of darkness," made his light shine in our hearts to give us the light of the knowledge of the glory of God in the face of Christ.  

  But we have this treasure in jars of clay to show that this all-surpassing power is from God and not from us. 

  We are hard pressed on every side, but not crushed; perplexed, but not in despair;  persecuted, but not abandoned; struck down, but not destroyed. 

  We always carry around in our body the death of Jesus, so that the life of Jesus may also be revealed in our body. 

  For we who are alive are always being given over to death for Jesus' sake, so that his life may be revealed in our mortal body. 

 So then, death is at work in us, but life is at work in you. 

 It is written: "I believed; therefore I have spoken." With that same spirit of faith we also believe and therefore speak, 

 because we know that the one who raised the Lord Jesus from the dead will also raise us with Jesus and present us with you in his presence. 

 All this is for your benefit, so that the grace that is reaching more and more people may cause thanksgiving to overflow to the glory of God. 

 Therefore we do not lose heart. Though outwardly we are wasting away, yet inwardly we are being renewed day by day. 

 For our light and momentary troubles are achieving for us an eternal glory that far outweighs them all. 

 So we fix our eyes not on what is seen, but on what is unseen. For what is seen is temporary, but what is unseen is eternal.

 

 

...2nd Corinthians 4

It is.

The UnSaid

The silence of The Unsaid...
            Choruses of what needs to  Be Told
        echo in my mind.


A scrambled photo of blurry confusion


   back-tracked swirls ,
                                  a merry-go-round of wanderings
       that I can't wrap my mind around.


     ...melancholy musings....


 Yearning for something Sure. 
   
Drifting helplessly,             Floundering in a relentless undercurrent of light breaths.


              Unsure of where I even am wanting to be.
 wrestling hopelessly with this  Nagging Emptiness  in my stomach.


I try and swallow the fear.
I choke on the heavy hollowness.


           The accusatory stares of The words I didn't say,
                                     Waiting.

Of Sensations Past...

             Distant Melodies...
  Dipping
           and Rising
                         between my outstretched fingers..


Rendering me speechless,
  a Song I know I've heard before


            but softer,

                       &sweeter.

Cinnamon swirls and

                            Rich vanilla notes,

      Gliding thru me like a torrent of chocolate spears.

A faraway anthem.

                         A echo of clanging bells

       Ringing in the back of my numb mind

 Familiar cHords.

            haunting remembrance.
 A symphony of goosebumps
           nostalgia.

Spiraling whisps of stardust

                            Floating&spinning  

                                                         thru the air...

      a Slowmotion swirling of tutus;
    Clusters of whimsical dreams in ballet ensemble
                   dancing among softly floating sugar crystals...
                                           barely hidden in the vanilla twilight.


A silky Curtain of memories...
        
    Simpering breezes
                              tug coyly at my hair
 Whispering,
           tugging.




           ....Begging me to stay.

On a cloud of Blossoms

Someday I'll go live in a field of flowers.
     
           secluded from drama...
Just me and the sky and the scent of love in the air.

Free to drown in the fragrant Hills of angelic blooming buds.

 

fRee to dance among the perfumed breezes...
   To bathe in the intoxication of Freedom

free to daydream on clouds of sweet blossoms.

 

Lost in a song of wonder.
 A lullaby of heavily scented bouquets.

 

I'd watch the sunset from my cushion of Happiness..
And relax contentedly in the royal twilight.

 <3
Maybe someday I'll die from happiness in a field of flowers.




What a Heavenly way to die.


Ahhhh. :)
*contented sigh*

I can smell it already!!! perfumed breezes teasing me....
 

....Maybe I'm just a dreamer..
                                             ........


;)

Easter Not on Easter

Hmmm. It would seem that I haven't acknowledged Easter on here yet.
I had a wonderful Weekend with my family and friends. :) Been super busy, But I wanted to leave you with the words to One of my favorite songs. Wow. The deep worship and Feeling in these words!! 
The inner cry of a heart, to be safe at the very place where True Love was Proven.

 Lead Me to Calvary

1. King of my life, I crown Thee now,
Thine shall the glory be;
Lest I forget Thy thorn crowned brow,
Lead me to Calvary.

2. Show me the tomb where Thou wast laid,
Tenderly mourned and wept;
Angels in robes of light arrayed
Guarded Thee whilst Thou slept.

3. Let me like Mary, through the gloom,
Come with a gift to Thee;
Show to me now the empty tomb,
Lead me to Calvary.

4. May I be willing, Lord, to bear
Daily my cross for Thee;
Even Thy cup of grief to share,
Thou hast borne all for me.

Chorus:
Lest I forget Gethsemane;
Lest I forget Thine agony;
Lest I forget Thy love for me,
Lead me to Calvary.

Amen. :')

Matthew 11:28: Come unto me, all ye that labour and are heavy laden, and I will give you rest. <3